I thought I'd found my real true love, soul-mate, whatever one may call it. That one person I was meant to be with. But, I now see I was wrong. He's hurt me so many times, especially this year when he'd broken my heart repeatedly. He'd seemed a bit controlling and jealous all the while, and broke up with me several times. I guess part of it was because of that first kiss we shared. I didn't want to let go of that for some reason. Something about it seemed so powerful. It was indescribable, nothi… Continue

The Pathetic Wormlike creature lays in his cot His pale flesh covers his weak bones He drowns in misery Where he feels most at home He wishes they would come Those who dance across his dreams He wishes they would come And rip him to shreds Death is his only excitement This pathetic creature Who wishes not to end his life But his very existence. Much Thanks to Martin, I owe you one, man

Those of you with Sense-shift will get this(maybe) Today, I went with friends to hang out. The last time I was at a church was 2 years ago, and that was before I was fully awakened. Well today my friend pulled me up to our local churh to sit atop the staircase. That was like walking into an iron maiden. Everything just stopped, I felt anger, tension, like I was having nails of anger pushed through me to torture me. I immediately got up and walked to the sidewalk a good distance away. I don't und… Continue

Ah shoot, this is it and I can feel it. For a long time it's been hard for me to say whats wrong, but I feel that I need to now instead of running away from it. For a long time I was with a girl whom I thought was my mate, my one true something. Lol now I see how stupid that was and pathetic. She used me all the time, never paid attention to me, and...I was just pathetic for letting that happen to me. Im supposed to be the strong one, always. And hey, im not complaining really, but...I mean, be… Continue

Well, I'm human I know & accept that, and i'm okay with it. However my pack refuses to believe me (they still accept me, they just insist I'm a therian)